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Saturday, 25 March 2006

So things have been going aweosme
lately
im loving life
all except school
beacuse we had testing all week
long.
Im droping down to Tech Prep
my senior year.
and im going to take some design classes
and drafting classes
it'll be fun

Me and Cody are doing amazing
were perfect for each other
and i love him so much

HIM's coming abck to town
in may and me and Cody are
going.
This time im deffinaly going because
i already took off that friday
lol
Im so cheaky hehe

me and cody just recently celebrated our
2 months
I know.. sucha long time, right?
:)

ben listening to a lot of James Blunt
and i really like him
Cody says he sounds like Macy Grey
I beg to differ

soo yeah that concludes tonights news report
good night and good luck
(in a Ron Burgany voice)

P.S.
This is a james blunt song
and i love this song but i just had to change some
of the words
please forgive mah

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Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

^^^ Reminds me of me and Cody (not the ~~crossed~~ out stuff)
So does the rest thats the same

~~Goodbye~~ (Hello) my lover.
~~Goodbye~~ (Hello) my friend.
You ~~have~~ ~~been~~ (are) the one.
You ~~have been~~ (are) the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we ~~used~~ (are) to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the ~~father~~ (Mother) of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

~~Goodbye~~ (hello) my lover.
~~Goodbye~~ (hello) my friend.
You ~~have been~~ (are) the one.
You ~~have been~~ (are) the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
~~Goodbye~~ (hello) my lover.
~~Goodbye~~ (hello) my friend.
You ~~have been~~ (are) the one.
You ~~have been~~ (are) the one for me.
I'm so (f)ollow, baby, I'm so (f)ollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so (f)ollow.

The (f) was for Cody.. and he knows why
hehe

Tuesday, 28 February 2006

	[28 Feb 2006\|07:05pm]
We found the owners of the dog and there here right now in a little while we wont have him anymore we found out his real name is Progada who the hell names there dog progada? its insane Im going to miss him ill post pictures of him if i could figure out how to upload them using the new rich-text well thats all for now

	[24 Feb 2006\|06:22pm]
Ok its official were keeping him if you didn't know which most of you dont my friend jebbo called me the last friday night(17th) and asked me if i knew someone who had lost a dog. i told him to take the dog to my house and tell jackie that you found him and you couldn't keep him so he did. weve had the dof for a week now. and hes not going anywhere weve looked and searched for him owner and had no luck. ill have pictures of my trrip to Gatlinberg and the dog

Friday, 24 February 2006

	[20 Feb 2006\|06:38pm]
Were leaving go to Gatlinberg Tn we wont be back until late Wednesday night. I wil miss you guys!! and you can call me if you want or text me! ~Monster

canoodle	[20 Feb 2006\|12:15pm]
Last night was perfect simply perfect. there are no words to describe it! Around 1230-100 Cody and Dahmer came to get me to go to band practice it was fun me and Dahmer were attacked by Alex and his gynormous stick! haha a drum stick that is. we left around 430 and went to the bank went back to Cody's and then we talked to Chelsea for a little while. then me and Cody disapeared for a while(hehe) around 615 we left to go to the SunDial we get to the cars and out of nowhere Cody pulls out of his trunk a Bouquet of red roses and a box of chocolates. that was truly special and amazing. I really didn't know what to say. The food was great. spendid, spectacular! lol brilliant!! then i called me rents and tried to stay longer because i told then i would be home by 10 and we didn't leave the place until 10 while calling my family i managed to lose my grams engagement ring so me and Cody looked around going to every place we had already been to. turns out some one had seen it and picked it up and was about to return it and saw me and him looking around and asked if we had lost something turns out that they had it i was so thankful that ring means a lot to me. so we sat back down.ate. messed around for a little bit we waited for 15 minutes to get our check. and then we left. on the ride home i think he fell asleep on me. which was soo cute. i also shared the chocolates with bill and chelsea. we got back to Cody's and Bill made Bananas Foster i belive that is what its called ohhh myyy that was good. and by this time a VERY special thing had happened. dont even try guessing because you'll have no clue then Bill took me and chelsea home and that was my night. I loved it.. ~~and i love him and everything he does~~

	[19 Feb 2006\|01:47am]
the feeling is mutual he said he was scared he said it was because he was falling fast and hard. why are you scared? why does he have to be scared? why am i scared? why do i have to scared? i dont want to be scared. im scaring myself. last night, we spent the better half of the evening together. we came back to my house for a while. he ate and then he fell asleep. but he had to get up and go home. as in DRIVE home. by himself. as in if he fell asleep there would be no one there to wake him up. i didn't want him to go. i was scared. Why? you may ask was i SO scared. its because i care about him. probably more than i should at this point. Im not going to do this im not going to screw up this relationship like i have all the other ones. i wont do it i refuse. if anything ever happened to him i wouldn't know what to do. id probably die inside. why do i feel this way why do i have to be such a damn girl why do i have to care so much? i gave him a ring. not a promise ring or any thing crazy like that but just a silver band. i asked him to hold it for me while i made him something to eat. he put it on. it fits him perfectly. is it a coincidence? was it meant to fit him like that? i dont know. i wish i did. i hate wondering

[19 Feb 2006|01:27am]

I should feel good right now.
and i dont know why i dont.
I got an email from Kyle
It reads as follows

( Kyle )Hey
sorry you've been sick, but I don't think your that sorry you havn't
called me back i don't think you care at all anymore. Theres a big
part inside me what wishes that you'll call and all of this will be
cleared up. i really miss you sarah. I got a concussion last week and
I pulled a muscle in my groin yesterday in lacrosse games. please call
me soon
Kyle

Im sad,
i dont know why.
I shouldn't be sad.
i should be happy.

We go a dog. or should i say were babysitting a lost dog.
hes really cute. we haven't named him yet.
jack was going to name him Milo.
and then i laughed because of bill's cat.

Tommorow im supposed to go to
dinner with cody to some really fancy resturant.
in excited.

im going to bed now.

[14 Feb 2006|09:31pm]

Shadows
grow so long before my eyes
And they're moving across the page
Suddenly the day turns into night
Far away from the city but don't hesitate
'Cause your love just won't wait hey
Ooh baby I love your way every day
Wanna tell you I love your way every day
Wanna be with you night and day

Moon appears to shine and light the sky
With the help of some fireflies
I wonder how they have the power shine shine shine
I can see them under the pines
But don't hesitate 'cause your love won't wait hey
Ooh baby I love your way every day
Wanna tell you I love your way every day
Wanna be with you night and day uh yeah

But don't hesitate 'cause your love won't wait
I can see the sunset in your eyes
Brown and grey and blue besides
Clouds are stalking islands in the sun
Wish I could dry one out of season
But don't hesitate 'cause your love just won't wait hey
Ooh baby I love your way every day
Wanna tell you I love your way uuhh
Wanna be with you night and day
Ooh baby I love your way every day
Wanna tell you I love your way uuhh
Wanna be with you night and day

Tuesday, 14 February 2006

so im at home...
im not feeling to good.
today is valentines day.
i hate valentines day. i hate it with a passion.

i need to call kyle and see if hes ok.
me and cody talked for a while last night.
i swear hes the only guy that has ever made me smile when i was that sad.

oh my and guess what
not many of you remember Jon
but if you do then you know who im talking about.
well i haven't talked to him since summer and today
while i was just chillin
i got an IM from him tellin me happy v-day!

i can't belive it!
its amazing!

anywho...
i miss cody right now.
nobodys home so thats a good thing.
i think im going to go take a shower and do some of my homework.

Je t'aime!

2 screams| silenced

	[13 Feb 2006\|09:27pm]
Kyles hurt. i feel so bad. i dont know what to do. I want to call him and ask him if hes okay but i really dont want to talk to him. I feel like a shity person right now.
silenced

[11 Feb 2006|06:12pm]

Oooooooooooooooh!
Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

In and out my life(in and out my life)
You come and you go(you come and you go)
Leaving just your picture behind....(ooh)
And I've kissed it a thousand times(ooh)
When you snap your finger, or wink you eye,
I come a-running to you
I'm tied to your apron strings,
And there's nothing that I can do

I can't help myself,
No, I can't help myself,

'Cause, Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
I'm weaker than a woman should be
I can't help myself
I'm a fool in love 'ya see

Wanna tell you I don't love you,
Tell you that we're through
And I try....
But ev'ry time I see your face,
I get all choked up inside
When I call your name,
Girl, it starts to flame
Burning in my heart,
Tearing it all apart..
No matter how I try
My love I cannot hide....

'Cause Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
You know that I'm waiting for you(waiting for you)
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
I'd do anything you ask me to(ask me to)
I can't help myself
I want you and nobody else

Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you(I dooo)
I can't help myself...
No... I can't help myself

Some of its got a lot of truth to it and other parts dont realld have anything to do with it...